I remember,

literally i remember writing the memory on this website with this exact picture no one else has. taken this picture from a screen cap just so i could make fun of our dumbasses. i remember saying how much i loved you in the memory and quite honestly, i still feel the same way. i love you with all my heart, all my determination finds my way to you again somehow. i remember staying up until the dead of night, literally thinking about all of you. i remember because i still do it. like an idiot, i continue caring about you even though the things between us will never be the same. still i continue to remember you as if you were the only one i told i loved. i never even had the courage to say it to someone as homophobic as you. i remember the way you made me feel like a brother and i remember the way we were easily able to seperate just like that. i dont remember the moment writing that other memory. right now, i remember thinking "what was i thinking?" i remember being filled with such determination with you. i remember your looks, and being told my looks were bad. i remember getting my heart broken by the both of you. i remember how one day, i was just left unscathed with the first one. i remember telling and talking to the first one. i remember him somehow letting me down much easier than the both of you. i remember me telling you "why cant you be like him?" and i remember your heart crushing ways of telling me "thats nice" i remember how despite me trying to paint you like the bad guys, you were always the good ones. and i hope i remember leaving all of you. and i hope i dont remember any of you